Poetry & Essays
Poetry & Essays
It’s ok to lose your passion
Except: The last two years have not been the best for me in terms of writing. The craft became something that I was afraid to continue. That fear fed on my self-doubt. But there was also a point where I lost my passion for writing. Following the completion of my first novel in 2018, I felt a great relief — I had finally did it. The editing process was next on the agenda but life had another plan for me. A mental health crisis crumbled the foundation I built over the years.
Heal Your Own Way
Excerpt: I must say this after last year, and even though what we are all experiencing to this day: No one can tell you how to heal.
In my short journey of trying to feel better, I've been going back to different ways to express myself. I had been taking my time figuring out what makes me feel better and what I would like to try in the future. Lately, I've taken up running. Next on the list is ice skating.
Finding something to cling to
believe everyone needs something to hold onto while they are going through their struggles. Whether that is faith, music, or anything really. It makes what you’re going through, hopefully hurt a little, or a lot, less. When you feel like you’re at rock bottom, having some kind of foundation to build back up is key. I think it helps you get on track—on track to a different you.
In the midst of my storm, I clung to faith. Specifically I clung to God.
When you’re up against yourself
Excerpt: This is a bit of a personal essay for me to other writers to read and identify with. I am writing to say that I am not out of this storm—I’m still in the middle of it. It’s just the winds have lessened and rain stings my skin a little less. I’ve got the help I’ve needed from professionals and I’m still working on it.
I think the most important thing for me to say to anyone that’s going through some kind of storm is to not give up. It’s easy to say, but harder to do when anxiety, or panic, or own feelings seem to say otherwise.
I’ve always had underlying anxiety since I was young, according to my mother. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be a certain way and took on numerous projects/tasks in the attempt to do it all.